1. |
Prelude
01:48
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swimming 'round this petri dish
my loneliness is growing here
i'm analysed, and criticised
day and night, mortified.
and everything i ever knew
all the things i shared with you
is pictured framed, and put away
i'll save it for a rainy day
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2. |
Happiness
02:43
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she takes a photograph of happiness
holds it to her heart and hopes for the best
tears are falling down her cheeks to her mouth
like alcohol in which your soul could drown
she takes it with a smile
because she knows that it won't be long
until she belongs to someone who isn't a song
she's in love with everyone but herself
drunk on the tears she cried for someone else
'take my heart and tear it up' she said
'i'll find someone to pick the parts' she meant
like a dog who isn't trained
she will love you without a name
there's no mistakes
you were never meant to be great
she's losing her pretty smile
because she knows that it's been to long
she'll never belong
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3. |
Out of Phase
03:02
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i'm all wrapped up
and all tucked in
I only somebody else would notice
that i have to wake up earlier than you do
to stop myself from crying in the bathroom
its no use, i can't breathe i can't move
but there's room to get used to this
i heard them say,
'no pain no gain'
wouldn't it be easier to just shift shape?
i wanted to ask you but i couldn't stop
seeing the look on your face
mother are you disappointed in me?
because i'm out of phase
i don't wanna grow up
not like this
i feel like a boy
in a dress
and it's not brave i'm so ashamed I'm such a fucking mess
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4. |
Stupid Words
03:33
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(There's a wall in front of my head again
I don't know if I can do this again)
The day before the downpour
Tuck your shirt and scratch down notes
We're all going to a party
Full of people you don't know
Yet they all know your name
But they haven't seen your face
The calm before the storm
Is the worst part of it all
Your stupid words echo too long
From the bedroom down the hall
It's much easier to shut up
But I find it way too hard
Caught in a cycle of trying to seem sort of real
But I lose more of me as I spill
(Do you ever feel like disappearing?
I always wished it, but now it's really happening
Someone's talking, it's coming out of me
I want to stop it I want to feel something)
It's good to be included
Just pretend that you're the same
You have to stay alive
Just to learn somebody's name
It's good to be included
In their endless fucking game
I find it hard to stay alive
Just to learn somebody's name
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5. |
Interlude
02:47
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6. |
Aubade
03:14
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rest your eyes a little longer
i will draw the curtains closed
there is nothing for us out there
impossibility is hope
it's so easy to be near you
i don't have to think at all
before you know it life is over and done with
i am not the only one
who has every been in love
i guess i'll never be the first
to do anything at all
breathing the same air
ever since you shut my blinds
i know there's something there
but i can't feel out my mind
before you know it we have run out of time
do you need me
like i need you
do you hate me
like i hate me
do you love me
like i love you
do you hate me
like i hate me
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7. |
Liar
02:34
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why can't you tell the truth
when everyone's looking at you?
my mind runs like a train without tracks
still, in a steam cloud.
why can't you stay the same
for more than just a day?
i honestly can't decide
if i'm alive
or i died in my sleep and no-one told me.
why can't you keep a friend
interesting until the end?
did you run out of things to say?
or was it just too hard to stay?
when this person isn't real
this person isn't real
this person isn't real.
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8. |
Daughter
04:32
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if you want a little more
I will leave it by the door.
I'll hold my heart out,
I hate the world now,
but I like you.
an empty smile would suffice,
but you won't look me in the eyes.
you said you'd try to understand
but what's new? no clue.
you're a shadow of yourself
you know it's bad for your health.
do you want to leave?
or you could stay and grieve,
grieve for me.
though there is no need
and I need you more than before,
but you can't see me anymore.
and do you, do you miss your daughter?
'cause I'm telling myself I won't.
I've got a bad habit of wanting things more when they're gone,
but I'm not gone.
as for you,
you've got a habit of hating the things you can't know.
but I know that it's hard to see through sunken eyes
clouded by
generations upon generations of hate,
the weight
it's drowning your heart,
and tearing us apart,
shouting in the kitchen Wednesday night,
the light
will shine through your skin,
and hit the rot within.
a parasite has gotten into your brain
and it's taking you away.
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9. |
Everything Is Better Now
03:34
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there was a cafe
near the college we went to
it was just a rendezvous
and I never tried the food
I never learnt its name
now I fear its been replaced
by another grimy chain
or some money laundering place
do you remember when we met for the first time?
I think you came of kind of bad
but I did alright
see I altered every word that came to mind
so you might find me
interesting
there is a void
on the outskirts of my mind
I like to sing out there sometimes
feel it wrap around my sides
it used to be the place
I crammed my ugly thoughts
now it's just an empty space
and I don't know what I've lost
I feel so alone when I'm with her
it's like staring for too long in a mirror
suddenly my face is falling into hers
at least I'm happy
meant to be
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10. |
Postlude
01:32
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how long can you wait
before you can't
recall my face
so far away
I blur my days
are you the same
I'll see and wait
keep life at bay
I just can't wait
it's every day
I contemplate
every mistake
I'm so unmade
I'm so afraid
I'm so unmade
I'm so afraid
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